Day 1

OK I made it through day 1 of no soda, no junk food, healthy food and exercise. Crap that was rough =)

Today's food

breakfast shake (breakfast)
2 eggs and slice of ham (lunch)
2 homemade tortillas with whole wheat masa,topped with low fat sour cream, cheese, skinless chicken breast, and slice of avocado. (dinner)

exercise

30 minutes the treadmill

so i got the breakfast and dinner down but lunch is so hard for me my biggest enemy is the supposely 5 small meals a day. i am so use to skipping breakfast have a snack (usually not healthy) in the mid afternoon then dinner. i figured a way around breakfast with the shake. next step lunch trying to find healthy simple lunches if anyone out there is reading this i would really like to get some ideas. is there a lunch shake out there? that would be so wonderful.

the hardest part wasn't so much the food but the no pepsi part. I have drank pepsi everyday for years it's what i usually drink in the morning too wake up and always before bed. I have cut back to 2 cans or 1 liter a day versus my extra large from jack in the box then refilled at least 3x a day. I am oping because i have been cutting back this cold turkey thing will be easier than last time. the evil pepsi is always there haunting me but i will be stronger this time.


I will fight the Left and not become the Right.

Ugly cupcake Society

i read this group and felt so connected I am a UGLY CUPCAKE i have never fit in at elementary school i was the rich girl (my parents owned a business in the town)kids called me names and teased me, i was different and enjoyed my solitude. in high school i was once again looked at different simply because i didn't go clubbing or sleep with everyone. i have been somewhat overweight most of my life in high school i managed to maintain 130-140 by the grace of God but in Southern Cali that still is OVERWEIGHT by my 20's I was married and was pregnant with my 1st child problem is i worked a desk job and since then just keep gaining and gaining (thanks to pot luck Friday and eating out for lunch)next at 25 i got pregnant for the 2nd time and then immediately got pregnant with baby number 3 i ballooned to 260 and have been stuck there for years i hate seeing all those skinny girls turning heads. i was raised by my dad and am a Tomboy to the T. i have no clue how to put make up love my jeans and ponytails not very attractive more like an UGLY MESSY CUPCAKE.

Just had a sad wake up call

It's currently 11:30 at night and I went into the kitchen and grabbed a rice crispy treat and ate it then went to the fridge and went to grab a Pepsi...... I am addicted to Pepsi that is my Achilles heal I know that. I have Pepsi everyday and if I don't I get severe headaches when I told the doctor many years ago he said that I was addicted and the headaches and moodiness was me withdrawing from it. how the hell am i going to leave the Pepsi behind if anyone reads this help i need ideas substitution to soda. well it's official I am not drinking anymore Pepsi.

ok failed the 1st 4 months

OK i have failed but no more starting NOW i am dedicating my time to losing weight i just got a treadmill and will soon be working in the office environment and I know that sitting on my butt behind a desk is a huge contributor to my overweight so i need to focus I am looking for motivators let's do it together. starting tomorrow morning i will weigh in and day 1 begins.